The Necessity of Not Knowing, and Not Needing to Know

Twenty four hours later and still no reaction to the vaccine. This is a welcome fact.

Last night, when I meditated, I practised the technique of affirming that I know very little, or next to nothing, about a great many things. This takes effort. There is a tremendous relief in this, as in the day job I need to be in a state of constantly knowing what is going on across a broad range of matters to with projects or staff, all of which demand my professional attention. This is unbelievably tiring and I don’t like it. In fact I wear myself out bracing myself with a degree of resistance to it at all times.

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I don’t know and I don’t need to know. This is wisdom, respite, liberation. Necessary, too. When I meditate the burden of expertise lifts. That expertise, which I have amassed over 25 years of professional practice, is sharp and pointed, but narrow, like a needle. I know a lot about a narrow field of operation. This expertise is piercing at its point of focus but has little broader substance. It has utility, and the average architect is quite well-rounded, especially given architecture touches on many aspects of human life and habitation - but ultimately it is still a relatively narrow framework of expertise once applied.

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It is 9.25 pm. I will now retire to meditate.